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I'm going to be in Carlisle for the next few days, poking Hadrian's wall. I probably won't have internet access while there. |
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| Placement |
[Jun. 30th, 2009|11:19 am] |
It is coming to the end of a rather long, and rather exhausting rotation on my Gastro placement. 7am wake ups, for 9am starts, getting home at 6ish with mountains of patient logs and revision to be getting on with, is finally getting somewhat...soul destroying.
Every morning I walk down that echoing corridor at the far East end of the hospital. There are beds which do not work, simply stored along the side of the corridor with notes attached saying "brakes don't work" or "wont elevate". The coffee that was a simple ritual, has now become a necessity to function. And the lack of air-con means by the time I've walked the hour to get here, and up 3 flights of stairs in the sun, I'm already exhausted.
Every day, more things need to be revised, or more patients needing writing up. Then laundry piles up, as does cleaning, tidying and a whole host of other semi important things. It would all be marginally worth it, if I was getting anything out of my rotation.
My G.P. tutor on Tuesdays has been exceptional in the amount of time spent going over and over abdominal exams. It means, that when every day one has to 'learn' or 'practice' it again on the ward rounds, my time is wasted. I am learning nothing at all. The Consultants are a mix of those which spend an hour talking about a rare sign of Pancreatic disease which we are later told by another Dr "Oh you'll never see that, don't learn it", or ones which don't actually teach you anything at all.
I am surrounded by people who worry far to much about the smallest details, forgetting that in reality...it doesn't matter. Alternatively they worry about whether to look for Jaundice by method A or B, failing to comprehend that it doesn't matter, as both are appropriate and you only need to use one method. Then they worry they can only do method A and not B. Again...failing to comprehend, that they therefore don't need to learn B, as they know method A. Idiots.
Then there are those which worry about things that don't need to be worried about such as learning all the various acute presentations of one thing or another, failing to grasp that we havn't learnt emergency medicine yet, and so wont be tested on it. Therefore learning about the exact fluids to give someone, is pointless. Learning about the chronic condition or a normal non emergency acute presentations is what they should be learning.
Someone else moans about how they will fail the year and don't know enough. But in reality they don't work very hard, know they don't work very hard, and are, by nature an arrogant person. So listening to them say how they will surely fail, isn't washing with me, and is becoming increasingly annoying. Some moan about how they have no money, and so must work down 2-3 jobs. Then they moan they don't have time to study. The thing is, we are all skint. I, along with some other people I know, have had to give up our jobs, because there is to much studying to be done. We are taking the hit, taking loans, and studying. Because we put that as a top priority. And so hearing people go on about how they have no money, have to work, and have no time for studies, isn't washing either. Suck it up, and put your work first. If you can't take out a loan because your credit rating is poor, well that, I'm afraid, is no-ones fault but your own, and if you couldn't make the 5 year commitment to be here (both mentally and financially) then you should have waited, until you could.
But exams begin tomorrow, with the Gastro clinical OSCE. I'm fairly confident about it, providing one particular Dr doesn't grill me, which I know he shall as it's how he rolls. If one or two curve balls like Hernias are thrown in then I shant enjoy that either. But by and large I'm quite happy about it all, and glad to leave this placement behind me. |
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[Jun. 26th, 2009|02:56 am] |
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My hands and my throat have rusted. Maybe its a part of growing up. At this point I don't think I mind. But the not minding worries me. It used to be that my hands were never still. In class, watching tv, late at night because I could never sleep I painted and I drew. I could feel it going, and that's a part of why I kept Art as a subject. Because it meant I had to paint, and if I didn't paint I wouldn't know who I was anymore, but I could tell that if there wasn't some other reason compelling me to keep going I would just stop. I never thoght I would stop singing. That's something I didn't expect. But I don't think I mind. And I don't know what that means. |
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| fic: mac/pc: in your eyes |
[Jun. 25th, 2009|10:23 pm] |
In Your Eyes
MAC/PC
1,521 words
NC-17
College // Everyone knows that PC is head over heels for Mac, even if PC still thinks he's being subtle.
A/N. Um, yes. For the Porn Battle, originally posted here. Unbetaed because... well who on the flist would actually beta this? :D Thanks to ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) sillyshy for reading it over on IM.
( Everyone knows that PC is head over heels for Mac, even if PC still thinks he's being subtle. )
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I have two of those 5 question memes to do, so I'll get onto that at some point.
IMPORTANT QUESTION TO THE FLIST: WHICH OF YOU HAVE SEEN GENERATION KILL? WHICH OF YOU THINK COLBERT IS A GIFT FROM THE GODS? TALK TO ME ABOUT THIS FOLKS. TELL ME ALL ABOUT YOUR LOVE. GO!
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| Hot under the collar |
[Jun. 24th, 2009|05:19 pm] |
My favourite automotive air conditioning person in the region, UES of Easton, has closed down and now only does occasional small jobs.
I recently purchased a car and want the aircon recharged. If it turns out there's anything wrong with the aircon, however, there's a larger job to do.
Does anyone know any reliable, reasonably-priced automotive aircon people in the Cambridge/Huntingdon area? |
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| fic: merlin: untitled//loveless: maybe tomorrow, you and i |
[Jun. 23rd, 2009|07:01 pm] |
1/ LIFE Urgh. My internet got cut by the storm last Monday, and it's still not back up properly. I'm having trouble getting it to connect for more than 10 minutes at a time for most of the day. It'll be a miracle if this post actually gets through. Whatever.
I've been occupying myself with application letters and driving lessons. I drove at 40 mph and didn't kill anyone! \o/ My heart, however, will never be the same again. Neither will my fingers, which are going to cramp and drop off if I keep clutching the steering wheel so hard. :/ But 3 lessons in, and I've got the hang of forward movement and turns, so I'm happy with that. At the risk of jinxing myself, maybe I will pass my driving test by September!
2/ HELLO So following the tradition of posting something fandom related to welcome new friends, here are some Porn Battle comment ficlets that refused to get porny in time, and now are never going to be finished.
Loveless: maybe tomorrow, you and i
PG-13
254 words
Kio/Soubi
( There are smudges of green on Soubi's skin in the shape of fingerprints )
Merlin: the one with the genderswap and serious uncomfortable silences
PG-13
548 words
Merlin/Arthur
( It's not everyday that one wakes up feeling distinctly unlike oneself )
3/ Right, now that I have suitably disgraced myself with my non-porn, I'm going to cross my fingers and hope the internet connection holds out.
4/ How are you flist? ♥
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